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It Gets Better by ElyssaJM It Gets Better by ElyssaJM
Okay. So right now I'm going to set my requests aside for a moment, I'm going to stop being a fan-girl and I am going to be serious for just a moment. Because I am hurting.

I may not be gay, and I may not go to public school, but I know how it feels to be abandoned. For those of you out there who are gay and are being prosecuted for it and have to wear those bandages, you probably have the feeling to. Whether it was your parents, or society in general, you know that feeling. My sister is gay, and she was shunned her whole life by our father and wouldn't let her be who she wants to be. And I resent and pity him for that. For not seeing the wonderful person that I live with everyday. He shunned me too. So I know how it feels. I know how it feels to be abandoned. I know your pain. And did I cut? Yes. I did actually. I was in the 7th grade at the time, I didn't even know what an 'emo' was. But I stole my stepmother's exacto knives and would cut my fingers. Just for some form of relief, to remind myself that I was human and that I did matter. Not for attention or for the pain. To remind myself. I was only 12 or so at the time, and I didn't realize that until now. So for those of you who cut, I am begging you stop. Because you are only doing more harm than good to your emotional stability. I am ashamed of myself, even though I didn't know why I was doing it. Because the horrible part was, I covered for my father and would do anything to get positive attention from him because I got nothing else. So I made up things, so that he would love me. He never did.
But my life got better, and even though I still hurt, my life got better. And it will for you too. Please believe that.

Here is my story. What's yours?
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Princess-Anakin Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2012  Student General Artist
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You are amazing, you know that right? Hetro allies are needed...thank you so much! That is so amazing that you are there for your sister.

My story? Well...I'm not ready to spill all the details, (you are very brave by the way)
But I'm bisexual, married with a kid. My wife (yes, we are married! :D) is a transgender woman. (meaning she was born male and she is the biological father of our son) Things are...okay now...we still face a lot of prejudice and it hurts.
And growing up and in high school...I've been through hell and back to put it simply.
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beyourpet Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012   General Artist
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BlueCrystalTiger Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
i dont think so... it never has for me...
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ElyssaJM Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Your life still has a long way to go. I went through hell for 13 years. But is over. It will be for you too
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BlueCrystalTiger Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
im 13
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ElyssaJM Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Digital Artist
What's your story then?
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BlueCrystalTiger Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
i get bollyd at school.....
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ElyssaJM Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Digital Artist
In a few years these kids won't even matter, and what they say won't mean anything. YOu have your whole life ahead of you. Don't let a few jerks get you down. Kids are cruel at this age, and they will be all through highschool. But we all go through it all. But I couldn't escape from it when I got home, at least you can.
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BlueCrystalTiger Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
thanks ^^ -hugs-
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ElyssaJM Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Digital Artist
You're welcome :huggle: and if you ever want to talk, send me a note :)
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RedDeath-OG Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012
Every time I read your story, I cry. But I can't stop reading it. My mind just doesn't want to process that fact that that actually happened to you and Ra. Feeling abandoned sucks. It's like, as much as someone else means to you, you don't mean anything to them. I spent nine years of my life with my ex-best friend. After that he just kinda dropped off the face of the earth. He didn't even tell me why he stopped talking to me. It was like, even though we spent nine years of our lives being practically insperable (One of our teachers even asked if we were brother and sister because we always came to and left school together. And our classmates insisted that we were dating, even though we never had romantic feelings for each other.), he never really cared. I honestly don't think I will ever get over that. I mean, if the one person in the entire world who I trusted and thought would always be there for me could walk out of my life without a second thought, why would anyone else care about me?
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Allison-of-the-opera Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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Eriklover12345 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It sickens me when people are like that. When I see a person people call "ugly" or "gay" I only see a person. Ugly can be a description but it doesn't always mean who you really are. I feel angry that such a nice person as you went through all that. For your sister I feel jealous that she has the sister you are. I have 3 brothers and I am the youngest so I don't know. I have felt bad to. If you want to know my story then read a note I will send you.
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ElyssaJM Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for that :)

You know I don't have one sister, I have 5. And three brothers. But I only live and talk to one because the others couldn't give a rats ass about me. But I am glad to have Ra. And I am proud to be her sister.
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Eriklover12345 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Well I have 3 brothers, one could give a damn but the others have stood up for me and are like big teddy bears. Iys good to have people like that. And your very welcome, I only say what I belive.
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